Ever feel like you're just going through the motions and life is passing you by? I feel like that today. I feel kinda defeated. Kinda never-gonna-amount-to-much. And I know intellectually that that's not truth. But it's hard to fight those thoughts sometimes. Why is that? I think I'm a little too hard on myself, but that's my nature. Why is it so hard for me to love myself sometimes? Why do I so often see myself as unworthy, unattractive, and unable to live victoriously?But I'm trying to hear and choose to listen to the voice of truth. But truthfully it is hard. I wish it weren't. It seems like everyone else has it easier than me. That's probably not true, but it seems like it at times. In the midst of me feeling like this I went to my room and put on my Glee music mix (always a sure-fire way to cheer me up ;), and the first song on the cd was Lea Michele's cover of "Defying Gravity". And as I listened to the words, I thought: "You know, it's so true. I'm through playing by the rules of someone else's game; it's time to just close my eyes and leap into the unknown -the unknown of trust and faith. I'm through accepting limits, I'm through accepting lies and shortcomings. It's time to try defying gravity. Watch me now. You won't bring me down. Kiss me goodbye. I'm defying gravity..."
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Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
of someone else's game
Too late for second guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap
It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
and you won't bring me down...
I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'til I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost
I think I'll try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you won't bring me down...
